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If there were secrets do they need to be secrets?
If a secret does not need to be a secret it will not be a secret anymore. I believe in secrets which is why I do not try to reveal them. Is this why magicians never reveal their tricks? Magicians’ tricks are their reality. Moreover, they are their tools to manufacture reality (and not just someone else’s). Are they tricks at all?

However, yes, I wonder what the tricks of life are, too. — Love? Love is just part of it. I dared to look further. Until I stopped looking.
Once you look through and you see clearly what is going on, you see what was hidden behind or underneath. You don’t see what there was. You see something new.

It’s like you start loving another man or woman once you begin to understand the one in front of you. Maybe this is what LaBute meant when he said one should not ask why when “what” is in front of oneself?

There are secrets. Do we need to reveal them? Or should we just try not to try?

“You are off the edge of the map, mate. Here there be monsters!”

Where are the maps that show us how to approach the secrets of life?
I guess, I like monsters.

What is the secret? Can you keep it?

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[This entry was originally posted 2008-05-28. It was re-done, updated, and expanded 2008-06-07.]

Often, when I wake up in the morning still tired and dizzy I try to move my brain into gear by thinking about what was, what is, and what I might perhaps possibly do if I managed to get up after all. Since I do know that I really should get out of bed I confine my thinking to, you know, important issues, urgent stuff, and things that matter.

Today, I caught myself thinking that all this thinking between alarms is only my brain trying to trick myself. Actually, I realized that it’s my body who manages to get my brain to do as if it could really utilize the alarm clock’s snoozer time to the best. Like every 5 minutes thinking (half asleep) in bed is as good as 5 minutes out of bed, and getting things done (even half asleep).

Apparently, I was quite awake (or my mind is already so twisted) because I did also realize that I am a liar trying to trick myself by sincerely thinking about how my body and mind are trying to trick myself.